Bonding

Axel, 2012

It's funny. If you had asked me five or four or five weeks ago if I was getting attached to Axel, I would have said yes, without a doubt. But now it feels like things are on a whole new level. If I've had a busy weekend, I really crave one on one time with him. I like his company and miss him like crazy when he's asleep (I kind of want to poke him to wake him up and play, but usually am able to resist.)

He's still eating every two hours at night and so a ton of work, but he's getting much more communicative during the day time. And so as opportunities for freelance projects come in I'm increasingly torn. I feel like there's no perfect time to go back to work. Not that he wouldn't be just fine, but I'm pretty sure I'd be a wreck. Less from worry than a sense that I'd be missing out on getting to know this little person.