Lately

Williamsburg, 2013

So it hasn't been all baby all the time around here.

I've been working like a whirling dervish and am really enjoying the mayhem now. I wouldn't say I've cracked the work life balance thing (by any stretch), but I do think any wistfulness I might have had about being a stay at home mother seems to have passed. Ha, I wonder whether the ladies above were secretly hankering to "work in media."

Work is completely unglamorous at the moment (probably the antithesis of what I imagined when I pictured myself at a magazine, a potted orchid on my desk.)

I always seem to find myself working in manic start up mode (a glutton for punishment?) But even so I am gratified by problem solving and being professionally curious. I like to think I will have some funny stories to tell Axel when he is a bit older.

I am also hugely grateful to have found such a brilliant nanny. Especially now that Axel is beginning to show his first signs of separation anxiety (reaching out for me when I put him in his crib, lip trembling like 'Don't leave me here!') Our nanny has been with us since he was six weeks old, so thankfully he feels bonded with her as well. When I leave, he's thrilled to see her, so the transition is pretty seamless.

When my work life is so peripatetic, it's good to know that his routine isn't being messed with. So now I just have to do whatever it takes to keep her 'til he's 18!